Detox ....Here we go!

DETOX..........
So today is day 3 of my detox from toxic food and facebook =)  ( yes this is posted on facebook but nothing was checked). It is going great and I feel so amazing.  I thought for sure I would be in tears by now wanting something toxic.  Cookies or  baked Cheetos . Both my weakness.
Again it is only day three but I no longer feel bloated. I feel thinner and Ill tell you what it feels good. I may not be "thinner" YET but feeling lighter feels good =)  Ive been mainly consuming vegetables and fruits. Lots of tea and water. I am allowed spices and seasonings so I have made different combinations of creative foods lol. You have to or you'll you nuts!   I usually hate veggie burgers but we are allowed them on this detox so I have one for dinner or lunch with veggies.  I bought a bunch of organic strawberries and grapes so when I feel like I could cave in, I grab for those. I think its helping that its been so hot out because my desire to eat has been minimal.  
My husband Chris has been working  in Milwaukee for work for the week.  I decided to come visit him for the day/night. Which when your on a detox, its hard to travel let alone leave the house lol. Too many temptations!  At least for me.  You want to go to new restaurants and eat what you want so on. So I I packed myself a cooler filled with tomatoes and cucumbers. Bag of grapes, few waters and some "detox" salad I made which is cauliflower/broccoli mix. Anyways, I felt prepared. BUT then Chris said we should go to dinner. I literally panicked.

 What the hell am I going to eat? So instead of being a little bitch about it I said I would go and just see if I could eat out.  (Worse came to worse I would snack on my veggies and such when I got back) We ended up at the cheesecake factory. Talk about the worse place in the world to go on a detox other than maybe Willy Wonka's Chocolate factory lol.  BUT, I put my mind at ease. I said I can do this, and guess what? I did.  I ordered a grilled artichoke(only ate 1/2) and a huge salad. The salad contained the healthy lettuce(romaine and such) beets, cucumbers,zucchini, carrots and some sliced avocado.  I asked for a little balsamic on the side and it was soooo delicious. I thought wow, I am super full. I didn't finish the artichoke nor the salad and I was stuffed.  So, I felt instantly calmer and felt that this detox  didn't have to be that bad.   I want this more than ever. I want to loose the weight and FEEL good. And I feel I am at the perfect spot in my life at this moment.  Being on a detox is so mentally hard for me. I hate being told I can't eat something.  BUT What I hate worse is NOT being happy with what I look like or who I am.  I couldn't keep going at the rate I was.  Chris and I want children eventually and I want my time yet. I want a healthy body for them and more than that a healthy mind. I am not there yet, but I WILL be there.

I know you may be reading this and think I'm nuts or what not but I love who I feel I am becoming. And if this annoys you I would prefer you just delete me from facebook and your life all together if I am even in it( Facebook is all a bullshit fake world and we all know it.  Its a place we can "Accept" a friend but not say a SINGLE word to them in public.  Why is this? I can see every photo of your life. I can see your single or your married. I can see your favorite books and movies. I can see where you literally are because you just "checked in". I can see your first baby just got her first tooth.  I can see your having marital problems........ BUT god forbid I see you at Target. God forbid I pass you shopping at Old Navy. What a joke!

We stalk each other to see how everyone is doing in their lives. Are they more ahead of me? So they have the dream job, the house the kids? Talk about pressure!!! And if you don't do that "stalking" on facebook, your in denial. Sorry, sweetheart but you are. I know the deal, I'm it too-which is the reason for detox and maybe the all together removal of facebook or certain facebook friends. Hmmm....

I only have so much time here and so do you. So we HAVE to make the best of it.
We don't get this back.


Today I am Thankful For:
Fifty Shade of Grey for helping me through detox lol and thankful for peaceful time spent alone